Since having Mason, I haven’t been away from him for more than a couple hours. I am always with him, taking care of him, and getting to cuddle him whenever I want to. It has been a dream. I absolutely LOVE being a stay at home mom.
Sadly, though, I begin school full time in one week. I will be getting a degree in the medical field, and I am very excited to get my foot into a new career field. Me going to school is very important for my personal growth and also important for my families future. So, it’s a good thing. BUT. I am really starting to freak out about leaving Mason. I will be in school 8 hours a day M-F, and Mason will be with Noah’s mommy. I am so grateful to have a mother in law who is so involved and willing to take care of Mason while I further my education. But I am still so sad. I mean, I have spent every day with him and sometimes I look at him and I’m like, SHOCKED at how big he has gotten. Like I feel like it just flew by. I am so worried that by me going to school, I’m going to miss it all. It is giving me a lot of anxiety, and I am definitely losing sleep over it.
In general, I am a very protective person. I worry about everyone I love and I hate when they’re away, as I just want them to be safe. I call noah like 8 times on his way to and from work, because he works so far away, and I just want to make sure he’s driving safe. So leaving Mason for so long every week day is killing me.
I know that a lot of moms work, and this is basically the same thing as that. I am sure it’s hard for everyone, but I really can’t stop thinking about it! I want to be there to kiss him when he cries, and watch over him all day.
Does anybody have any advice with how to deal with this? Share your experiences.